...calidreamer...

my regrets

2005-11-16T16:25:00.000-08:00

i'm afraid this is goodbye...for a long while. I won't be blogging at all..(not like I have anyways :P) til next year....at least four more months for sure. I won't be on here. so don't bother checking for new posts..cuz there won't be any..for almost half a year. and even then. i might delete this one and start a fresh one.

goodbye. nice knowing you all.

<3

merry christmas..in a month :D

aiya: i love fridays...

2005-10-14T06:20:00.000-07:00

hey everyone. i'm at school and sufficiently bored..if you can say that. i just finished a graphing assignment...well, almost. I can't believe i'm really blogging. i feel quite tired...come to think of it...ever since school has started i've been tired. at least..i only have three more months. yay.

my co-op is turning out to be good. I like it better than school. School is too much sitting and listening.. LOL.

i gotta run.

have an awesome weekend everybody!!!

finally...blogging

2005-09-24T11:18:00.000-07:00

i just thought i'd update this blog.here's a random poem. since i don't know what to write about right now..

There were times
When all I had to do was open my mouth
And you could say the words for me
There were times I put out my hand in the dark
And I know you could reach it
And now even though there are years between us now
And there are miles that stretch beyond
You reach out your hand
And I’m here
And I hope it can be the same again
I wish I could make it the same again

facing the end..

2005-09-05T17:37:00.000-07:00

need i explain?

tomorrow...is back to the slavery of words, numbers, and more words. oh..and teachers...the slave drivers. actually, i am not dreading it that much. This is the end of highschool for me...this one semester..so i am thrilled..and i only have two classes in the morning..and co-op in the afternoon at the hospital for marketing..and then calculus..nightschool(*gasp*...*faint*...lol) It most likely isn't half as bad as i imagine it. I hope everyone enjoyed their summer. I have not been on here..at all :(. i miss it. it's so incredibly inspiring to hear other people's point of view on things and philosophical ideas..and stories. I want to write. so desperately. i started writing this book...and really..i only wrote about twenty pages and then i was too busy to do anymore. maybe i should write the book on here. and then all you guys can critique it. or put my poetry on here..and you guys have to honestly tell me...when it really smells. :P

GOOD LUCK this fall <3

hearts and kisses,

me (calidreamer)

thinking....

2005-08-17T18:34:00.000-07:00

so, I was thinking, it's almost the end of the summer and I have not blogged on here since the beginning of it. So here is an overview of my summer..not that you're all dying to know...but just in case you were wondering..:P

So i went to camp...since Lysha always has great descriptions of that week..I won't say anymore. just visit her site...
I also got two more jobs....the first one was at Alexander Place..which I'm not very impressed with. The description was completely wrong...there was hardly any interaction with the people..i spent most of my time alone...cleaning...and organizing dirty dishes. not at all what i was expecting for 9.11 an hour. but whatever. The second job....is completely marvelous. it is at the Royal Coachman...also called a pub...and it's this antique restaurant/bar....that i was just hired at. I am now a hostess/ waitress. I only partly a waitress b/c i can't serve alcohol yet...and there are only two waitresses a night....so they need help. i adore the job. it's better than the library..b/c you're always talking to people. You need to memorize so many things though..you have to memorize every food of the day..special of the day..and kid menu deals. Plus the number assigned to each table...the requests from each table. then when you get the cheques you have to place them in certain slots assigned to different waitresses. it's very confusing. it also takes a while to catch onto the balancing act of so many dishes. My summer has been overall uneventful since I've only done some travelling to the East Coast, States, and at friends houses. Waitressing is so cool...but yeah. that's just me.

i'm out. i'll write more later. and sooner.

till then

xoxo

<3

2005-08-16T15:44:00.000-07:00

your name is Adina
your kiss is ... erotic
your hugs are.. warm
your eyes .. light up a day
your touch is.. irresistable
your smell is... beautiful
your smile is.. entrancing
your love is unique

http://memegen.net/viewmeme.pl?meme=1074662660

backkkkkk

2005-07-18T10:15:00.000-07:00

yes. so i'm here..i've been back home for about a week now. I just haven't had a chance to blog. i still have to scan some pictures...i'm kinda mad tho..b/c our camera's shutter thing was busted..so we lost over half of our pictures :(:(:S. yeah. the trip was so amazing tho. My favourite was definitely the sea kayaking..and the beaches. :)

i'll blog later..when i have time. I've been busy working so my time has really diminished.
camp is in six days. crazyness.

love you all

i'll blog soon...hopefully :P lol

<3

in ten days.....

2005-06-09T15:11:00.000-07:00

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I know this is a little early to say goodbye to the blogging world..since I won't actually be gone til a

little less than ten days from now. But I also know I won't have any time to blog between now and

then. With exams, packing, shopping, planning, and seeing people before I go...I will not have a

chance to blog again. So I'm just saying bye...til July 9th...and I promise to give full descriptive

details of what happened on my trip to Quebec, around the East Coast..and probably into the

States. I hope i get to do a lot of horseback riding, swimming, hiking, sightseeing, and boat riding...lol. Bye everyone.

have a great beginning to your summer.

please leave comments while i'm gone....i'll love to read them all when I come back...

so long, farewell.... xoxo

love <3

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something

2005-06-06T18:59:00.000-07:00

I am tired...nice opening. lol. everyone wants to hear that. I don't know why I'm blogging...because things have turned from great to bad....I think this technology age is amazing..but it is extremely frustrating for communication. I think from now on I'm not going to say anything that really really really matters in email or internet..it will have to be in person..because everytime i say something important..the person reads the wrong thing into it.....
what a nice thought. lol. moving on...

this weekend was good. and....only NINE MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL. that deserves to be celebrated. and that means a week later after school is out...i will be gone...on vacation to the east coast..which makes me even happier. since i desperately need to get away.

I just realized having close friends is wonderful...having people that know the details about you and you can say anything to...but there's always line. there's always something that you'll say with good intentions that gets taken the wrong way..and then all these walls get put up and when they dont' let you even explain or don't even outwardly tell you they are mad at you..that makes me extremely annoyed. how immature. it's usually something incredibly stupid too. i've been lucky to not have any people that hate me...that i know of.. lol. but stupid petty disagreements make me sick. it makes me want to just have one best friend.....makes like so much simpler. but that isn't life. we're made to love..and be loved. ...well...there should be MORE love!! this war thing isn't really fun..if anyone hasn't noticed. so end it already. i'm not actually mad right now...just in case people think i am..since they're probably taking this wrong. i'm just thinking about all the things that have been floating around lately. yeah. well with that..i'll just end with such a 60's motto....make love, not war. and please don't take that so literally. cuz i have met ppl who did. LOL. anyways...have a good night everyone!!!
<3

interesting........

2005-06-01T06:53:00.000-07:00

I just listened to one of Viggo Mortensen's songs. I didn't know til now that he's an artist and he sells books of his poetry and photography and drawings. He has one from when he was filming in New Zealand. He's extremely talented, but his music...is very weird. There's one clip with Elijah Wood and Viggo Mortensen singing...it makes me laugh...LOL. Well, anyways, I have stuff to do..but I'm in a good mood this morning because ALL my classes are cancelled...how amazing is that :D! I don't have to go to school. yay.

I'll write more later. <3

random facts.....:)

2005-05-25T18:59:00.000-07:00

This is from Lysha's blog...i just stole it..i know.. i'm so evil :P. i hope she doesn't mind b/c i'm bored and yeah..i do these things when i'm bored....the ones that are true are in pink...

1. I'm in a relationship (oh yeah...many many many relationships...actually no...i'm not) ha
2. I can't eat sugar
3. I am in love(ha..the good old days..LOL)
4. I think Bush is an awesome president
5. I think gay marriage should be approved
6. I enjoy playing my music loud
7. I like to decorate stuff
8. I love the color silver
9. I have too much free time
10. I love hugs!
11. I like to take pictures
12. I am a blonde (naturally)
13. I love Vanilla Coke( i don't remember...really)
14. My parents are divorced
15. I get amused easily sometimes
16. I dislike my sibling sometimes
17. I love all my friends to death
18. I have been to the world of my own at least once ( i don't know what this means..but sure:P)
19. I love Aladdin
20. I'm afraid of losing loved ones
21. When I get home the first thing I do is get on computer
22. I need to apply myself more
23. I need more sleep
24. I like to write poetry
25. Hypocrites annoy me
26. I wish I could ride a motorcycle
27. I don't like chocolate much
28. I have weird dreams
29. I don't have a shower
30. I love to swim
31. I'm scared of changes
33. I don't do extracurricular activities
34. I'm too lazy
35. I am an atheist
36. I tend to hate jerks
37. I'd rather have a small group of close friends than a large group of friends that I didn't know all that well
38. I'm easily hurt
39. I'm an Internet nut
40. AIM/MSN takes up 1/4 of my life
41. I like giving gifts
42. I enjoy receiving them as well
43. I'm quiet in class and loud with my friends
44.I love watching films
45. I am very crazy at times
46. I know how to play the flute
47. I love where I go to school
48. I hate my homelife
49. I don't like eating
50. I leave school soon(at CHRISTMAS TIME :D)
51. I am an impulse spender
52. I only ever seem to drink pepsi/coke
53. I have lots of nicknames
54. I eat too much junk food
55. I've had a Xanga/Blog for over a year
56. I'm tough on the outside, super sensitive on the inside
58. I am shy at first
59. I'm scared that the entire world hates me
60. I love sarcasm
61. I'm a bit blonde at time
57. I love video games
62. I think I scare people sometimes(HAHA)
63. I think snobby people suck
64. I hate it when people judge others without knowing them well 65. I prefer the internet to the TV
66. I can cry and not be sad
67. I shower
68. I interrupt people a lot
69. I hate it when people ignore me or irritate me
70. I'm quiet, then I come out with random outbursts
71. I have a lot of pet peeves
72. I hate scratched CD's and DVD's
73. I love blue eyes
74. I hate acting girlish
75. I'm a very messy person
76. I want more piercings
77. I hate my figure
78. My friends are loud but awesome
79. I sleep on my side
80. I appreciate nice things that are done for me, even if it's just a compliment
81. I'd love to have the money to buy things for people for no reason at all
82. Iced coffee is the best(ice cappucinos are good....yum)
83. I want to get my ears pierced again
84. I want my belly button pierced
85. I like sitting around doing nothing if it pleases me
86. I don't like talking to new people
87. I love horse back riding
88. I'm a day dreamer
89. I never want to get married
90. I like clean sheets
91. I love to ramble about random things
92. If I leave my hair to dry it goes curly (wavy)
93. I don't sleep much
94. I loathe sunbathing
95. I'm scared of the near future
96. I hate it when parents take sides
97. I'm a Virgo
98. I share my Birthday with best friends ((what the heck...))
99. I love recieving Blog Comments
100. I've ridden in a hot air balloon
101. I've bowled left handed
102. I love popcorn
103. I've liked my best friend before
104. I wake up to an alarm clock
105. I hide things under my bed
106. I hate closed-minded people
107. I have gone sky diving
108. I've written a book
109. I love Def Leppard
110. I make wishes on "11:11"
111. I've played lacrosse (in gym)
112. I have the same best friend since kindergarten
113. I absolutely love cute/weird socks
114. I know what I want to be when I grow up
115. I write in cursive
116. I paint my nails
117. My best friend lives in another state
118. I watch T.V. to fall asleep
119. I try to always do my hair in cute styles, but it never looks good.
120. Whenever I'm bored, I usually resort to dumb quizzes like this one

countdown....:)

2005-05-24T07:13:00.000-07:00

There are exactly 19 days til school is over :D That's really good news...and one week after that I am going on vacation...which is even better news... :D

i'm deciding where to apply for a summer job....I need some ideas...in Waterdown there's not too much besides fast food and I don' t think I'm doing that again. maybe I'll work at Blockbuster...free rentals :)

It's almost kind of late to apply so I better hand them out today to get on it. I have to run...
I'll write more later...
<3

Summer is almost here.................. :D

contradictions.....

2005-05-19T07:22:00.000-07:00

i should not be posting. i have stuff to do. but i will anyways...because i do not want to do my homework. So this will be rather short...

Yesterday was extremely interesting. I had to watch this movie on sweatshops and what life is like down there...and then I saw this movie on one person's version of Columbine. It was all rather disturbing. My classmates were either sleeping or not really paying attention to it. I felt sad after, because even though there are some people who are doing things to stop what's happening in those poor countries...we're all part of the problem. We all buy the jeans that those people make. There is a good side to it...80% of child labour has gone down because of UNICEF giving subsidaries to parents and sending kids to school. I'm not going to mope about it for ages...but I feel like i should do something to change what's going on there. There's not too much we can do.....we could keep on buying the jeans and let them have jobs...or don't buy the jeans which is practically impossible for us to stop doing and then they won't have any jobs. It's a lose-lose situation which is frustrating.
And the movie that was a version of Columbine....that was very disturbing because it was true.
I don't think I can recommend the movie either....so let's leave it at that.

Sorry..this post isn't really happy. I just hope that soon i can do something to change the way things are in Bangladesh and the other places that have sweatshops. This one girl they interviewed was like "we're all citizens of the world..we all should have the same rights..."

Everyone is always preaching about human rights....but there it's slave labour. At this one place in Bangladesh...the people get paid $100 a week and work at least 12 hours a day everyday of the week. They don't just sew...they have to sandblast jeans and there is no safety regulations...so this one guy has all this dust in his lungs at the end of the day..and he says he has problems breathing from it. they don't have any air conditioning...so it's like an oven in those factories...they call them Maquilas in Mexico. Even if they don't want to work overtime, they are forced to without being paid. Lots of them work all day and all night with no breaks at all so they practically starve. It's pretty bad..because there are lots of gangs in the factories and lots of girls get raped. I don't have time to write anymore...i typed this out rather fast..so i hope it makes sense.

Write later

<3

freaky, freaker, freakier

2005-05-11T10:19:00.000-07:00

haha. whatever.

i'm so bored it isn't funny. I'm sitting in business doing nada. which in Serbian means nothing. This weekend is already booked with fun...and I haven't even done a thing. so funny. Sometimes school is a joke. other times.....i wish it was.

haha. okay..

happy birthday to jane.

see y'all later. darlings

in your imagination....

2005-05-10T12:09:00.000-07:00

hello.

Places I must visit in the future:

Hawaii
California
Mexico
the Caribbean
Estonia
Venezuela
All over Europe...and I mean that..except for maybe Russia and the ugly places LOL
Egypt
New Zealand(wonder why...:P)

i have other places..but i don't have their names right now..i have momentarily forgotten..lol

tagged by Allegro

2005-05-08T06:45:00.000-07:00

here are my five:

If i could be a musician.....

I'd play all day long, throw macaroni at my concerts(that's dry macaroni), and play at least five instruments..including the cello, guitar, drums(does that count?), mandolin, and harp..hehe. I'd make all aspiring musicians play at my concert and have lots of food and ...now I really don't know what I'm talking about anymore LOL.

okay, this is crazy...:P

if I could be a painter......

I'd paint my house orange, purple, red, and blue. My room would have orange and blue stripes with red carpet. The living room would be purple...and the kitchen would be red...and I'd paint rainbows on the roof and animals on the ceiling, just to give people a scare when they sleep at my house.

if I could be psychologist....

I'd tell the people that they have technosis and that they have become a culture lag and ..tell them they need to undergo brain surgery to become normal and shipped into outer space...

if I could be a librarian...

i'd mix up all the books and tell the people the summer theme is "seek and ye shall find"...i'd all change all the rules...and have parties for kids every month..since the library is rather boring at the moment...and buy better movies, books, and Cd's..for people to listen to..also change the layout...design..and please....a little more friendlier....HAHA...you realyl can't tell i work at a library O_O

If I could be a writer...

I'd travel around the world...and make up crazy stories...and fantasies and publish them in every language..there would have to be one about Osama bin Laden and one set in Egypt and one in the jungle...and etc.

uhhhh...I have to tag some people...but not today..I have to run...

sorry guys...

<3

ahoy...:P

2005-05-05T16:45:00.000-07:00

It is SUNNY outside..it is WARM outside....only 31 more school days til SUMMER :D
That's definitely a good reason for celebration. Also, my annoying cold is going away....:) bye, bye stupid sore throat and ear aches. heh :P

So how is life for everyone? I hope it's amazing. Mine's been pretty good...hmm..what happened this week..well..Monday i was sick...and watched like five movies..then Tuesday I was still sick..watched more movies and did homework. Wednesday..i went to school...with my voice sounding weird...b/c I lost it Monday and Tuesday and it was just starting to come back..so the teacher kept on asking me questions and then cuz my voice is so quiet..he's like what adina? WHAT adina? what ADINA? and i'm like *sigh*...forget it. LOL. Then he went into this speech about how cool it is to lose your voice..and I was like mhm...not. It hurts and it's frustrating. Everyone was like Adina you're so quiet...! I'm like I CAN'T TALK>>>!!! arghrh. It was an amusing day. Thursday...which is today...was fun...I did no work in any of my classes..I just talked...b/c i was too lazy and/or too excited for the weekend :P.

it's not what the world has to offer you
...it's what you bring to it

I think I misquoted that...it's from Anne of Green Gables...I kind of paraphrased it...lol. I really like it though, because it is so true. People think that the world owes them everything, when really....the world was here first. People get so depressed when they don't think they're part of anything huge...well, you know, if you are making the world a better place for someone, if you love someone, and if you are happy with where you are...I'd guess that you're right where you're meant to be. God made you part of this world for a reason...find out what it is!!

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

good times

2005-04-23T15:30:00.000-07:00

hey everyone! i'm in Ohio at my friend Shirley's house and I felt like doing a quick post. I just watched Count of monte Cristo, which is a very amazing movie that I recommend. Oh man, the shopping down here is SO GOOD...it makes me jealous. I went to this one store that had all these adorable skirts and dresses..i was so happy :D I think I would have bought out the whole store ..lol. I really would.

Okay...there is one problem. THE WEATHER!! it went from hot summer days..to flurries..and it's rather depressing...ahh. make that VERY depressing. I have to run. so I'll try to write later...hopefully sooner. :P

love you all

xoxo

uhhh...helloo

2005-04-19T17:38:00.000-07:00

yeah...i guess ppl think I've died and have gone to the blogging heaven...haha. since I haven't read anyone else's posts or received any comments..cept for Lysh. ahh. so i don't have much to say..since I have to have this assignment handed in before midnight tonight for my online course..which really stinks. I'll write something better later.

whatever you do...don't stop dreaming! people that stop dreaming ..don't get anywhere. yeah..that's my little thought of the day...haha..whatever. this is such a loser post. :P

a fresh flowery post....

2005-04-13T13:02:00.000-07:00

actually not. since I don't have any flowers, but it is fresh because all my other posts are stale and old. yeah.

so anyhow, life is alright. normal. mundane. plain. boring.
any other good words to describe school and life?

on to the next topic: balancing things. I have a problem with balancing things in my life. I always go way out with my social life and leave everything else behind. This semester my school is alright, but I need more time to do stuff I want to do like write, draw, and play my music. So i have a problem with that right now. I also have a problem with blogging on here. I need to make this more creative looking. I need to get some links and maybe change my template again. it's starting to bore me. anyway...

I love spring...I love walking out of the house and feeling all happy that the sun is shining and there's no wet slushy brown snow.

i have some good news. i am going to Boston and up the east coast and through Quebec for almost a month on a family vacation at the end of school. only two months away. that's not too long of a wait. i'm excited. I love travelling. :D

okay
write later everyone

blah...

2005-03-31T06:34:00.000-08:00

well here are a list of jobs that sound interesting...

photo journalist
movie director
marketing(designing billboards,ads..etc)
anthropologist(hired to study different cultures around the world and live in each culture for a period of time)
sales rep(travelling around the world)

wow. i just forgot all the other jobs I had floating around in my head. please add some interesting ones. i need to find some cool job ideas.lol

my apologies

2005-03-29T12:46:00.001-08:00

I have neglected the blogging world a great deal in the past few weeks..er months. I am busy..as usual...and doing nothing much else. I almost want to go to college for a year and take all these crazy fun courses that I've always wanted to do..for example hardcore photography. that would be sweet. Maybe I'll do that and then go to University. I just need to get another job so that I can make enough money to handle the year at college. My Easter weekend was wonderful. One of my friends came over and we did pretty much all you can do in Burlington/ Waterdown except for mini-putting because we ran out of time. lol.

Hope everyone else had great holidays.

xoxo

2005-03-23T16:13:00.000-08:00

here's a mini list...of my favourite random things:

-french vanilla's
-williams' frappes
-late night talks outside
-swings
-waves
-being crazy/beautiful ;)
-blogs
-poems
-songs
-making up a song on the piano
-singing late at night
-hugs and kisses

oh yeah...well i don't really have much to say. I'm kind of bored right now. I got my report card and I didn't do that great. I only got like 87's which are mediocre..but when I want to get into university...eeeeeeks. that makes me scared.
later

fact sheet...lol :P

2005-03-22T07:05:00.000-08:00

-two more days till easter weekend
-i love movies
-i love fantasies(esp lord of the rings)
-i like to read
-like to make people smile
-like to laugh
-like to write
-love music
-I like mcd's fries...but hate everything else there
-like frosties
-love my friends
-my favourite people are amazing
-like to sing
-winter wonderlands are cool
-jocks are annoying
-art is good
-also, life is good
-make-believe is great
-acting is fun
-pretending to be someone you aren't can be fun
-writing poetry is what I do when I need to think
-thinking is also a smart thing to do..haha
-dream
-laughter is the best medicine..i firmly believe that
-love heals everything...
-i wish i could direct a movie
-filming a movie would also be great fun
-i miss the beach
-i want to surf
-i miss bodysurfing
-lazy summer days are my favourite
-vacations are sweet
-friends are angels following you through life
-nothing else comes to mind..so this is the end...

life goes on.........

2005-03-16T07:43:00.000-08:00

It's halfway through march break. It's been very great as I'm sure everyone else's has been too. There has been a lot on my mind lately..I guess because I have so many decisions to make and no time to really think about things. Everyone has dreams that they want to fulfill in their life and big ideas they want to tell people, but now I don't know if following those dreams are totally unrealistic. I have so many dreams and I get so confused with people telling me that if you work hard at one thing you will achieve exactly what you want or go exactly where you are trying to go. I believe that to certain extent, but at the same time there is common sense telling you that if you do what is almost guarunteed success you know that it will take you where you ultimately need to eventually go. I am kind of speaking in riddles here. haha. Life just becomes more confusing the older you get unfortunately. There are somethings where right and wrong are fuzzy. It's almost impossible to see what is right and what is wrong...they become so blurred. This world makes truth so relative; it is frustrating. My family went up to Lake Huron for the day....and I have the van and I'm going to leave in a few minutes to go pick up my friend in Kitchener. yay :)
I will write later. have an amazing march break everyone!

three days

2005-03-08T18:41:00.000-08:00

yes..march break is almost here.

Today was alright. Since I have my G2, I've been doing a LOT of driving. Every day I drive a lot. I still love it, but I'm just starting to realize how much time people spend in their cars every day. it's crazy.

I bought the movie The Village today. That movie is amazing. It is one of my new favourites. I'm not really in a philosophical mood to start rambling on about a current issue. There are a lot of issues that I am having problems with that are leaving the odd one out...for example abortions and gays and lesbians. All these people at my school that are saying gays and lesbians are so cool are a little confused over some things. Another thing I've noticed, the people that have had abortions are not the ones that are ranting about how it's a "right". The women that have had abortions are the ones that are writing books about the pain and how they feel so guilty. i am doing a huge project of abortion: so anyone who has information..please give it to me. I need everything I can get my hands on right now.

One other issue I will mention before I sign off: the definition of love.

People nowadays define love as "lust" or "relationships that are long term." No one is willing to sacrifice or commit. People wonder why there are so many divorces: it's because people want to live selfishly. Having your own way and separating when there's a disagreement seems easier than being humble and meeting halfway. There is more pain in the first option which is the most common, but people don't realize that. Love is pain. Love is sacrifice. No one can expect their true love to walk in and stop their life to do whatever they want at any moment. My friend once told me after we watched a movie where the girl sacrifices a great deal to marry the boy that she wouldn't do that much for someone. well, honestly, if you won't do that much for someone...then that means that you aren't willing to truly love them. I know the Lord of the Rings haters that read my blog will roll their eyes at me mentioning this but Aragorn and Arwen are the perfect example of true love. It wasn't easy, wasn't simple, wasn't free, but they had something that is worth probably ten times what most relationships are like today. Love is pain, but there is always hope. Most people don' t realize how precious true love is. today's use of the word love is so common that is has taken away from the true meaning of it.
I was working today at the library and i was putting away this magazine that had the statistics for what guys want from you and what they're thinking when they do this or that...stupid..yeah. but when i look at the numbers, I am so glad that I am not dating right now. there are a lot of hurting people right now when there are that many messed up love stories. I wish I could do something to help those people and save them from making mistakes that can cost them so much.

" Love hopes all things, believes all things, endures all things...."
I probably misquoted that bit of the verse...but yeah...that's part of it. Correct me...since I'm probably wrong lol.

later <3

Crazy/beautiful

2005-03-05T10:59:00.000-08:00

hey. that's a title of a movie i watched last week..it was pretty good. kinda cute. I did all these errands this morning by myself in the van..it was SO much fun. It took me all morning though. I'm trying to figure out what I want to do for a career. Seriously, it's SO complicated. my parents are telling me to do one thing, the course counsellor is telling me something else...and i'm like ahhh. what do i do! right now school is so much work. I hate it..I'm like can't i have a break. but no...the teachers want to make every student's life miserable either by making them work so hard..or giving them terrible marks b/c they can't do all the work or don't care anymore. So right now..it's a lose/lose situation..feels like it anyways. because we'll either get so dead from doing school all the time..or we'll get awful marks. but in the long run..the marks are what counts. so yeah, the marks are what's going to get me into university. eeks. i'm scared for university. I don't know where to go...I think I want to go to U of T, b/c all my friends are going there. It'll be fun to live with them downtown. Mostly exciting..even if the city is a dirty place.

I'm so happy there's ONE MORE WEEK til March Break...i am DYING for march break. hahaha.. i really do sound desperate. well it happens...LOL.

oh and I wanted to say I totally agree with Sandra's old post about people trying to be cool.and i think that's one of my biggest pet peeves. Those people think they are gaining everything they want, but in the long run they will be the people with nothing. How is being a failure cool. I don't understand. Some people just don't see the future..and the consequences of their actions, so they'll rush ahead and be very sorry later.

I have to go. sorry for not posting in a while.

guess what!!

2005-03-01T17:23:00.000-08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh...

today i got my G2!!

:D

and I drove myself to work and it was scary because it was dark and i couldn't see. It's so weird driving by yourself...it's way too quiet. my brother and sister are almost more excited than I am because they think I'll drive them anywhere they want to do...well hehe...:P we'll see about that. hah.

Oh man...I've been too busy to make big blogs..or even comment on anyones...it's just insane right now. i still have to get amy's b day present for her party this friday..i am so swamped. I haven't even gone to school since Friday..so I have tons to catch up on. :S

I'll probably be seeing most of you soon..since I am now driving on my own:D

promise to never forget you

2005-02-28T14:33:00.000-08:00

i'm listening to this beautiful song. I don't even know who it's by...but yes. this weekend was nice. I got to relax and get together with friends and do some thing I've been wanting to do.

I went to a funeral today. It was heartbreaking...I cried. I never cry in public..I don't know why...but I cried at this funeral Everything the pastor said was perfect...and when we started singing I felt so guilty for not spending more time with this person or going out of my way for her. I remember when she was here and I looked at her casket and all the people clinging to her lifeless body and realized she'll be getting what she deserves in heaven. She's probably in a beautiful gown right now with a sparkling dazzling crown and smiling again.

that's all for now. I have to run.

nerd

2005-02-23T19:44:00.000-08:00

yeah..i took the test that allegro took.and i am 41 percent nerdier than all the people that take the test. My results said " Face it...you are slightly nerdy..."
i was like...great :S oh well...it can be a good thing.

haha. i'm such a loser. the sad thing is i know i'm a nerd this semester...b/c i mostly think about school and hardly anything else, which really sucks for me. i have to go study...come to think of my nerdiness. O_O

so embarassing...hahaha. i do have a life..i promise...seriously...truly..I do lots of stuff on the weekends and during the day. it's just every time I blog...I'm supposed to be doing homework. haha. but hey..people need breaks.

later <3

....snowflake...

2005-02-22T12:42:00.000-08:00

sooo....it's rather white outside. I look out the window and all i see in white. school is so much fun. even thought I have my bad days...i wouldn't be homeschooled for the world. If I hadn't gone to school I wouldnt' be friends with Kyla, Karen, Kaylah, Jenny, Meaghan...and i would have never met Keegan...or Josh.. or Andrea...or Kayleigh. yeah..the list goes on. I went to tim's today...and i had a BLT. let me acquaint you all..with how wonderful a BLT is..haha that makes no sense.
I also had some tests today...and they all turned out amazingly well. so I am happy.Anyhow, since this blog is merely the ramblings on of me...to no end, and since I want to go eat supper...i will write in here later.

<3

by the way...that is a heart..for all the people that don't know that is a heart...well now you know:P

not a poem...

2005-02-19T08:52:00.000-08:00

~<>~

We aren’t the same
I'm beginning to feel it
when you come walk with me
I can feel the space between
Sometimes I can see it
When your eyes lose their light
and I watch your smile fade
We can’t go back
Can’t return to the days
When we played in the grass
And rolled down those hills
When I pulled your hair
And you held my hand
Can’t retrace the steps that led us here
We can only watch the past from a distant
I want to relive every moment
All those perfect days
where every day we'd wake late
share our life dreams
and picnic in the sunshine
You're my other half
as silly as that seems
you know it's true
I don't remember how to laugh
when you aren't around
Let me paint your black skies blue
Can you not remember the good times?
I love you too dearly to lose you now
They ask me why I bother
when you are barely yourself anymore
You have a different spirit
something changed that day
when your face darkened
there was that wistfulness in your voice
that wasn't there before
but there's always hope
Let me take away your pain
I know
If I can't bring you back
I wont be able to find myself again
So let’s hold hands
And take a stroll where we once romped and played
And laugh for old times sake
I hope we can make it be the same
I wish
we could make it the same again

~<>~

this isn't supposed to sound good...it's more of a bunch of thoughts..than a poem..it's not really a poem at all. it's a sad story.....but yeah. this just isn't poetic...it's basically pain...

cerulean sky

2005-02-17T14:13:00.000-08:00

by the way...cerulean..is the colour blue. that's the most weird name for blue but yes :P. I think it sounds rather cool. anyhow...

Today was an awful terrible day...no other way to put it. I am getting a cold..thanks to my lovely family :P and I had so much homework and I didn't finish it at 12. So therefore...I was forced to get up early to try to get it all done. But i didn't...because I was too exhausted to get up early because I've been doing too much school. Everyone thinks I'm crazy to do four courses, but heh...it would be fine...if I didn't have four hours Calculus homework every night. School is so fun...it's just the stress of all the deadlines. I currently have the stress of weighing my time..to either write this blog or work more on finishing this huge assignment for my online course that's due today. My online course teacher is insane..she makes due dates on the weekend!!!!!! I want to shoot her sometimes...her and my boss. HAHA. I'm actually not a violent person if you know me, but my boss and my online teacher are both crazy ladies...that i would like to kick out of my life. Yeah..enough of those people.

I have become lax on doing my calculus homework. boo. So i shall have to catch up on that tonight. i have so much to do....ahh. That's why this blog won't be very long.

I decided to go to prom this year. I don't know what i'm going to wear...but I don't think I'm going to go with anyone. .. There is one guy...____fill in name.:P.... I'm not even gonna let it enter my mind, because I need to be single right now. There is no way I am dating right now. Dating is so confusing, messy, tricky, stupid..and a whole bunch of other things..unless it just happens to be perfect. I've had experiences and I don't want to do them again. Especially since he isn't a Christian. that ends that topic.

haha. Sorry guys...I'm thinking about ten million things at once..and trying to concentrate on blogging and I don't think it works. I wonder how many people agree with going to the prom. I know some of my church friends don't. I dont' know about any of the people that read my blogs right now tho...let me know what you think. I don't know if i should go. AHH. decisions. I love dressing up...love the people...would love everything...but...the parties afterward...hmm.that's pushing it.

I love comments and opinions...so let it loose. haha.

sheerly joyful...

2005-02-15T11:59:00.000-08:00

yeah...i know it's a very stickily sweet title...but i can't help..i feel so happy and giddy today. I had a debate in my international business class..and i'm sure my team won..we'll find out for sure tomorrow..and even though i was so nervous..i had SO much fun...:D! All these people came up to me after and told me how awesome i was..i felt so special. even though i was freaked out at the time by thirty people staring me down and wanting me to make a mistake. haha. and then I ran into Meaghan, my old best friend...and i haven't seen her for such a LONG time..she's like hey...i miss you! she was talking to keegan the night before..and they were talking about me..and how they wished they could see me again..and missed me tons! i was like aww. i feel so special today. meaghan's adorable..i love her! yeah...and you have to check out the hobbit trailer...i put the link to below...in my last entry. and i guess everyone's busy or just sick of me...b/c no one has made any comments..oh well :P
tell me what you think of the liv tyler pictures down there too..and also the elijah picture ;)
cuteness...that's what he is..Hahaha...I know Lysha will agree with me on that one.

I have to run to work...

later all you amazing people...:P

<3

the hobbit trailer

2005-02-14T16:36:00.000-08:00

haha.enjoy....

be my valentine...

2005-02-13T13:03:00.000-08:00

haha..by the way..i don't actually want elijah to be my valentine...just thought I'd clarify that. :P

soo...mondays are always dull and long..but this one was extra dull..and COLD..and RAINY yuck! I got chocolate covered strawberries from my mother..for valentine's day..haha...yeah...pathetic..i know..:P
Well...all the good boys are taken at my school right now...so yeah..!

today i went to wendy's for lunch with cassandra, kyla, and karen. We're all slowly getting colds...except for cassandra...she was if anything...being her EXTRA bubbly self...and karen, kyla, and me were like half dead and tired. hahaahh.

I love school. I just hate the nonstop stress of it, when you have four courses..and you have no break...and even when you have a test...there is homework after...and it never ends. Right now i want to crash, but instead I have to research for a speech i must write and memorize tonight..and then start a huge project for challenge and change..and do calculus homework. lots of it by the way. ah. well I'm in grade 12 so you can't expect much less work.

Time flies by so fast..i still remember the first day of grade nine, being so shy and walking into the classrooms not knowing a single person there. Then slowly making friends that either bloomed and still are blooming..or died out sometime inbetween grade nine and grade twelve. Actually, the most times I've been hurt by people has probably been mainly from people at school. I'm a loyal person and I never questioned that other people my not feel any loyalty to their friends or use friendship as a tool to get the things they wanted. Well, going to school was a huge reality check in that way. i met the cruelest people ever..and i met the most amazing people ever. Needless to say, I am still good friends with the amazing people and don't really communicate with the others..haha. :P. but yeah...I guess everyone goes through that stage in life. I used to be so worried about whether people liked me or not..or whether I was doing the right thing. now i just do it...and it's this huge sense of freedom and relief from all the worries I had in grade nine. I have lots of friends and I feel loved, despite the absence of a special boy. But that makes no difference, because I know I'll meet someone amazing soon enough. I have other things on my mind and on my heart. I just need time to sort things out and really find out who I am.

so with that...
i'll wish everyone
happy valentine's day

Love you all <3

whimsical........

2005-02-12T13:15:00.000-08:00

Most of you know my obsession with Liv Tyler and Lord of the Rings...haha. well here's another picture. :)

it's one o clock...ahhhhhh and i have two hours to finish all my homework for my online course and hand it in. crap.oh man. well that's life. the stress never ends does it? :S

I want to be an actress. I don't know if it's one of those whimsical things, where you want to do something random and then change your mind soon after. I want to try acting. I've never had a chance to, yet so far. but there is always drama at my school. I hate the drama at my school though...the teacher is annoying. All I've ever done on a stage is play piano and sing and play violin..oh and flute too. Playing piano and singing in front of my school was amazing. I loved it. I was nervous, but it was great.

i have to go to this dinner at my church tonight and i'm so tired. i hope i'm not getting sick from my sister.

Later everyone

<3

2005-02-12T10:36:00.000-08:00

a picture is worth a thousand words...

2005-02-12T10:35:00.000-08:00

interesting.

...more liv....

2005-02-12T10:34:00.000-08:00

i want those bangs......

your normal freak

2005-02-10T14:30:00.000-08:00

haha...that's a contradiction..and most of you probably think it's retarded....but there are the people that classify themselves as normal and then there are the people that classify themselves as freaks. Well....earth to humans.....no one is normal..there is no normal...in reality...everyone is a freak! okay..some are more freaky than others...but we're all freaks...my point made, i'll move on :P.
I have a calculus test tmr !!!!!! AHHH...*adina trying to breathe..*..scary scary!!!!!! okay...next topic...*regaining breath*

this is for Lysha...(((((((((((((((((you))))))))))))))))))))))...that's a hug for those who don't know. She's adorable..and she has a model body..she's so slim...*envious face* :P....and she's beautiful!!! There is no way in heaven anyone can call you fat..just thought I'd clarify that...haha..i'm probably really embarassing you. sorry lysha. you can slap me later...!

yeah..so today was alright. School was the usual..except the teacher decided to pick ME (of all people) to be the first person to tell the whole class how to solve a calculus question...i was so thrilled(understatement!!)......or overstatement..haha..! yeah...I can calculate things on paper way faster than doing it in front of 30 people with the board 6 desks in front of me...:S..!! ahh.so yeah...but it was alright! my friend Robyn said i did a good job...haha..so i must have not been that bad! yeah...and lunch was boring...i hung out with Kyla, Karen, and Kelly. If you know my friends from school you'll know that almost 99 percent of my friends have names that start with a "K"...it's crazy..and insane.! We have a circle...where we hang out at break....and it really should be called the "K" circle...with the exception of my friends Jenny, Erica and I because everyone else is a "k". I don't know why i'm telling you this but yeah....there's Kyla, Karen, Kaylah, Kelly, Katherine, Kate, Kealin, Kayleigh, Kelly S. , and more. haha..my insane school life.

I was trying to avoid someone....I guess he can technically be called an "ex" , but yeah....he's supposed to be done school already but he came back for a year...i was not very happy...! I always run into him..so freaky. It's like fate..or something worse. I don't what it is..I don't even know if I believe in fate! But if I did.....fate would definitely have something to do with this situation...yup. I don't know if anyone else feels this way...but isn't it awful when you meet someone and think they're amazing and gorgeous and perfect..and then a year later..you find out these awful things about them..and it practically breaks your heart...cause you're already attached..and then you get mad at yourself for even thinking anything could have come out of something so dumb and trivial...and wish you hadn't even liked the person in the first place. So then you try to block them out of your life, but they never go away. I used to believe that "time heals "...but honestly..it doesn't. After a long time...the pain isn't so constant..it just comes in short spurts...like when you see them..or talk to them..or get close to them. I sometimes wonder if I'll ever get rid of those memories..or if things will fade in my mind that I wish never happened. But it probably doesn't work that way. For a while, I tried so hard to block everything out that was painful or could cause me pain..and that only made this thick wall around me that shut out the good and the bad. That wasn't worth it...because in the end I hurt other people by trying to heal my wounds and prevent new ones, by avoiding people who had the power to hurt me. Things never happen the way you wish they would.

I hope this isn't too depressing. I'm not trying to be depressing. lol. I'm actually really happy right now. This semester is amazing...I love the people in my classes...the new friends I'm making, the fun times I'm having..and the future I'm looking forward to. I met this girl that everyone tells me looks like me..I don't believe it though because she's drop dead gorgeous..and i'm like wow...that's like the best compliment anyone could ever give me...but it's kinda insane...cuz i'm sure I don't look like her hardly.

I have to go study Calculus.

unfortunately
i am being summoned to my death....til Friday at lunch when I'll be set free!

Love you all...

xoxo

you're my hero...

2005-01-28T20:24:00.000-08:00

i love that picture. so cool. yeah..it's actually not my eye. and...in reference to my last blog...someone told me yesterday I look like Liv Tyler! i was like no way:P! yeah i know i don't...i'm way too ugly to be classified near liv tyler's gorgeousness.

I'm getting tired of the need to feel pretty. Nowadays, it seems to be one of the most important things. When i go to school every day, i'm like surrounded by models..and then there are the ugly people. Beautiful and smart people are always favoured and I'm tired of feeling like neither. There's this one girl that sits in front of me in English and the teacher is always extra nice to her and everything, because she's a total genius. I was in one of her classes last semester and the teacher there did the exact same thing and it made me feel so dumb. I guess i'm getting used to the fact that I'm not very attractive or appealing. People tell me I'm pretty, but it doesn't mean anything if I don't feel like it. I don't hate myself..i just don't look special in any way. The inside is way more important so that is what counts.

I have to run, but i guess i'll finish my thoughts on this later.

beautiful :)

2005-01-28T20:04:00.000-08:00

i don't understand the people that think Liv Tyler is ugly...she is absolutely gorgeous and she's my favourite actress. okay...people have things against her voice...but she's a girl..and it's not annoying to me. Plus, i loved how she made her voice low on lotr..it was amazing. so yeah..that's my little speech about liv...haha. and by the way..she just had a little boy named Milo like a few months ago..i'm so happy for her. :)

sweetness....

2005-01-28T19:48:00.000-08:00

i'm changing the template on here because i've had it for such a long time and it's time to have a change. I've decided to open up more about myself on here, since in the past my blog has been just tidbits of info on the boring details of life. I was talking to Lysha about being secretive...and I think i'm the only person that blogs that hardly share any of my personal views or opinions on anything so if you don't know you'll probably be like whoa. but here it is. i hope this will be a lot of fun.

write more later

adina

wonderful taste of freedom....

2005-01-25T07:43:00.001-08:00

so my exams are DONE..they're over...they're ...dead.lol. i will never go to my stupid chemistry class again. yes..that's definitely a reason to partay......haha. and so i am. this week is gonna be crazy fun with no school ;)
that's all the update for now...i have to run cause my mother is picking me up from school..since i am currently sitting in the library...waiting for her...

well good luck to everyone else who still has exams

i'll blog later

<3>

a failing attempt....

2005-01-23T10:38:00.001-08:00

my blog is really quite a bore. i have to fix it up. it's also annoying when 90% of the people that read my blog don't blog so they don't leave any comments...so it looks like i'm blogging to myself..well technically i write down my thoughts keeping in mind many other people could read them! yeah..haha. i'm so happy i only have two more days of exams..and then i'll be SET FREE :D:D:D:D
yeah...i am very excited. then i'll be going to phoebe's house for the rest of the week..til Friday..actually. i'm ecstatic. :D
haha...on Friday it was my last lunch with Karen and Kyla..so we were all sentimental and rather sad...:(! So we went to Wendy's first for lunch and then we went to the candy store and got lots of candy :) and then haha..karen got some Red Bull! for those who do not know what that is...it's a fruit drink...that has an EXTREME amount of caffeine in it. most people mix it with vodka and ...yeahhhhh...it's actually bad for you..i found out later..cuz it gives ppl heartattacks if they have too much or get addicted to it. which really does...suck.
anyways back to my story...we all drank Karen's Red Bull...and i promise..whoever is reading this..LOL...that i've never been so hyper in my entire life. i was like on drugs...but i wasn't acting stupid or retarded or anything..i was just like...a little ..crazy :P!! anyhow..i came home that afternoon and my mom was like what's wrong with you? hahaa...yeah..that was a fun day.
anyhow..i have to go back to studying for exams...YEEEKSKKKKSSSSSSSS.
i am so nervous now...b/c i have SO much to study..and no time..
ahhhh. and i suck at concentrating for a long period of time. it usually doesn't work very well.
lol
love you all

later my darlings <3

and if we could go back....

2005-01-18T17:28:00.000-08:00

well...i'm very happy there are ONLY three more days left to the semester. i am extremely happy that i will have holidays following exams :)! today was an alright day. i was tired. i do not know why, but i am always tired ever since sunday night. i have been insanely tired. i went out with kyla and karen today to this new McD's.....so cool! the design felt like some retro cafe..rather than a McD's. yeah..so that was amazing. and then i went to the library and tried to research for the essay with my economics class. boo. boring. and then i went to work. I got a RAISE !!!!!!!!!! yeah...i now get paid 8.97 AN HOUR! :D:D:D:D:D
i'm very happy about that. I'm worried about next semester..i'm gonna have calculus..yuck!
this is my schedule
spare first period :)
calculus with mrs detenbeck(did i mention that i hate her!?)
online course in resource room (challenge and change in society) ....(sounds nice and easy :)
English with this ancient teacher named Mr Richardson (ew. :(
International Business with Ms. O'Connor(she's alright..i've had her quite a few times before ...if you do your hwk..she's nice )

enough said. i must go write two essays, and get ready for a lab tmr, and also work on studying for chemistry(exam on MONDAY.!!!!!!!!) and then i must do some economics(actually a whole independent study unit!)
boo. oh well..this is my life for this week :)

later <3

the endings come too soon.....

2005-01-15T10:04:00.000-08:00

hey everyone. i'm sorry i haven't blogged in here for a long time, but things have been getting busy. the semester is almost over ..yay :) can't wait for exam break!! :D yesterday was good...i watched napoleon dynamite and troy! both were good..except that in troy...everyone dies! well except for the girls...meh! Napoleon dynamite was amazingly funny.
yeah...I'm really tired..it's 1 pm and i'm tired! ahhh...i didnt' sleep enough last night..:P! I downloaded the MSN 7 a while ago...and it is so good...i love it! i made a new blogging site on there...i like it very much. I'm still working on it, but when i'm done fixing it up i'll put the link on here for whoever wants to check it out. susy will probably be the first...LOL..since she lives on the computer. man..how lucky is she..to have her own computer at school all the time in every class...that's just not fair. if i get caught on msn at my school i get suspended from the library...haha...actually...for me...i'll be not allowed to go on computers ever again...since i already got caught :S! by some mean old lady...ughhh..! *rolls eyes* i go on every other day and my friends are always waiting for me to get thrown out of the library, but that won't happen. :P i probably sound really over confident there..but whatever :P!
whenever i blog on here i never know what i'm blogging about....i just type..and something comes out. it's probably boring everyone to death...oh well. you don't have to read this. i really only blog on here when i am SOO bored or should be doing something else...aka. hwk! right now my life consists of homework, studying, talking on the phone when i should be doing the referred activities and talking on msn when i should also be doing homework. I was going to tell my story about my chemistry teacher this week..but i decided not to because it will make me mad all over again. School is all good..except for some of the teachers! like my Chem teacher..he is SOO ull of himself it isn't even funny anymore(grrrrr...*makes evil face*) everytime i confront him with all the evils he is doing to me..he totally snows me..won't even let me SAY a WORD! and starts preaching...he should have become a lawyer..i think he just likes hearing himself talk. teaching wasn't the career for him. he's tall, mid 40s, and BIG..like football player big..not fat big...and he's just intimidating..and he KNOWS it..so he always uses it to his advantage by screaming, yelling, or talking down to them in his fast clipped way (grrrrrrrrr *makes a GRIM face*)
anyways..enough about my stupid teacher. only FIVE more days with the evil man..and i will be free. :D

i really want to go out today but i have so much homework i doubt that will happen. :( oh well, i'll be out tomorrow...:) look on the bright side...one more week til freedom for a limited time...but what can you do ?:P 'tis life.
oh no...i just realized...this will be my last week of spending lunches at the mall with karen and kyla :( (*tear*) ..i'm gonna miss those fun times so much. we have the best fun together, eat the worst food...and act crazy :)

well i must be off.
later my beautiful darlings <3

crazyness

2005-01-04T13:16:00.000-08:00

yes...that's my life right now. or that's what it feels like. eeks. I haven't blogged on here in a long while. and this is gonna be the shortest post in history probably...cause i don't have time to write anything. i have to leave for work in 15 minutes. i really don't feel like going to work. my first week back at school has been relatively uneventful...i went to walmart yesterday and my friend's house..b/c she wanted junk food and we had to stop and get her gift certificate for walmart. yeah..we bought like a LOT of junk food...and then i was an hour late for my last class which was really bad. :S...but i didn't get in trouble or get marked absent which is all that counts. and i didn't miss anything either..cause economics is a stupid class.lol. we do nothing but write one note a day and then talk A LOT...and then we have a 50 q mult. choice test every two weeks. yeah...well i have to run now.
<3

happy holidays..

2004-12-28T16:00:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling better...yay :) i'm happy about that...my Christmas was alright...actually not the greatest...but not too bad. I loved Sandra's blog ....very thought provoking and so true! I was bored so i started reading it...though I really shouldn't be feeling bored when I have so much homework to do. This Biology Research Report is especially boring...lol..oh well...homework is a pain. well this is short cause i have lots to do. I don't know what I'm going to do after highschool..it's scary because it's so soon for me... i change my mind like every month...first it was teacher. then optometrist, then cosmetician(that was really only just in my head...cause that would be so fun to be :P ) , and then i was thinking business....marketing maybe..who knows! I know i want to find a new job this year..the library is becoming boring...so i'm excited cause my dad might be able to get me a job at his work...and that would be oh so sweet..because the pay is very nice :D Maybe he could get me a job in a lab there where i can blow up all these chemicals...hahaha...that would not be good.
I hope everyone is having a good holiday. i probably won't blog in here til the next year...i'm too busy...boo
so happy new years!!!
<3

blah

2004-12-20T14:19:00.000-08:00

i'm not feeling the greatest...actually i feel kinda down right now. my mom drove me crazy yesterday...the people closest to you always drive you the craziest!!!! it's probably cuz my ear hurts a lot and i can't hear AT ALL from my right ear. i don't know why i'm blogging on here when i have nothing to say...but anyhow today hasn't been the best. Susy's leaving for Windsor...nooooo...so sad for me. She'll be partying and i'll be here bored and sick. booo. oh well..i'm happy she's having fun. i still have to go see Series of unfortunate Events with Phoebe and hang with her for a few days...which has to happen or i might actually die...lol...maybe literally...! i can't live without her. I love the present i got for her..i hope she loves it too..lol..she better love it...haha! :P or she's in trouble.
ahh. so yeah...my weekend has been total crap..since all i did was sleep, talk on msn to susy, jonathan, keegan, and no one else...really. oh and chat on the phone for a few hours. and then my mom dragged me to Hamilton church ..literally..dragged me out of bed and forced me to get in the car..like who the heck cares about going to church when they're sick!?!?! so yes..i went to lysha and sandra's church when i felt like total sh*t excuse the lingo...but yes..that is the only word to describe it and i dont' think they were all that happy to see a sick person..lol. i'm not really contagious..but i'm not really myself when i'm sick..meh..who is? then my mother got us lost in downtown hamilton trying to find some stupid store that sells this stuff for some dinner she wanted to make..i was tre annoyed...cuz i was driving and i really did not care about dinner since i wasn't interested in eating at all. so we ended up going home and not getting anything at all. and then i went to bed..and then today i didn't go to work..and went to the doctor..and i guess i am cursed with short ear tubes...what a joy.
i watched a movie with my lil bro and sis and did nothing all day.
that's my boring weekend.

later <3

winter wonderland

2004-12-17T09:51:00.000-08:00

okay..well it's not quite that yet..but there's WHITE beautiful snow outside and i love it. today has been one of the best days ever...in the history of school. The last day before Christmas Holidays at school has always been my favourite day. my Chemistry teacher always threatens to give us so much homework this break..and he didn't give us any. instead, he gave us a quiz on the names of all the reindeers on santa's sleigh in order. i was like dude..why am i here??....but i was happy cuz heh..free marks...and no homework:). but why would you name a reindeer dorden? what kinda name is that...what is it from? my teacher has "dizzying intellect" sometimes...and today he was definitely showing it. he talked about how he felt shell shocked from driving in bad weather for 45 min. hmm..shellshocked..from snow ?? i dunno.

Last year i sang in the Christmas Assembly and played piano with Jolene..and today she sang by herself..cause the ghetto piano is broken (:P our music department is SOO cheap) and i didn't have time to do anything with her this year. but she sounded sooo amazing ..i was like wow and everyone in the caf stopped talking to listen to her audition. Her voice is so gorgeous...you could close your eyes and listen to it and be like wow...who is that? I am sure my jolene will be famous one day. i missed being up there with her singing "in dreams" from Lord of the Rings...:( *sniff* that was the only sad moment of my day..cause i realized this is my last year of seeing the Christmas Assembly. highschool is almost over. I've been dying to get out and be free to go to university and travel around the world...and now that it's almost over...it's so depressing...and scary in a way.. cause my friends and I realize we're getting old...eww..old.

another part of my last day before break that i love is getting all the cards...my favourite card was from janice...she wrote the nicest letter ever in it...the sweetest words anyone has ever written to me :)
I felt so special all day....and i got my Yellowcard CD back from karen. sweet.
i missed it.
and now i think i'll go call my friend, then watch a movie, and then i'm going to moonlight madness in cambridge with my crazy school chums. and tomorrow...well first off..i'm SLEEPING IN...for the first time in a long long long long time..and that is not an understatement. :D
i'm so excited...it's so beautiful outside...it's not even cold. i walked home with my coat half off...cause i was hot. oh and amy, if you're reading this....i'm wearing your monkey socks for the first time..i <3 face="trebuchet ms">and thanks Lysha, for leaving comments. you rock...i love your blog...i always go and read it when i'm bored and it always cheers me up :)

well i'm out
<3

two days til holidays

2004-12-11T17:29:00.000-08:00

its wednesday...the day i don't work..yes :). but i have to go study for my three tests tmr..so i'm just gonna post a poem i wrote and i'll probably write something more later during the holidays when i have time.

I was thinking maybe tonight
I’d sit down and spill it all to you
I was thinking maybe I’d tear down this ice wall with my bear hands
And you’d overlook these bloody hands to see the pain within
Cause every moment the more truth I see
The more I feel my heart breaking inside me
Till nothing is left of me
Till you’d consume my broken body
And heal my scarred soul
Sometimes I believe these tears were sent to me
To heal
I hope a new world will be revealed tonight
Cause I’ve never been as ready as tonight
There will never be less of me as tonight
And more of you

where are the snowflakes?

2004-12-08T13:10:00.000-08:00

i'm extremely busy so i only have like 5 min on here. this past weekend i had some very good times. monday was bad cause i had tons of hwk to do, but then i went to the coram deo concert with phoebe. she's so cool.
and then went to wendy's after. coram deo is a choir that i used to sing in and i got to go see their christmas concert like i usually do every year.my favourite part is when i get to sing the last song with them cause they sound so awesome and i'm so proud they used to be my choir. it was a little different cause Jess wasn't there
:( miss ya jess. but besides that, it was amazing :) good times. today i went out for lunch with my buddies kyla and karen. we walked, which totally sucked, cause Kyla had no gas in her car. so i was freezing the whole time..:S. One of my friends really wants to get married at some crazy exotic place and have an open bar on the beach serving "sex on the beach" (lol) as soon as possible...sounds good to me. but lately there have been too many weddings going on. My friend Naomi got married last spring..that was a shock cause she left us and lives in far far away(over 6 hours away).I haven't seen her since the wedding since her husband got mono right after they got back ... and now this weekend, Erica is leaving the single world at only NINETEEN. well ....sucks i won't be there. sorry erica...but your wedding is 6 hours away :( all the best...love ya <3

i just did this lord of the rings quiz about who's your love match from the trilogy. and mine was legolas. (orlando bloom). hmm..aragorn is def. cuter :P but legolas is cool. Liv tyler is sooo hot...(if you don't mind my saying so..i'm not lesbian...) hahah.

this is a message for susy: where are you? i'm waiting for you to get online.

thanks to all the ppl who leave comments ..it makes me feel so special:) <3 you guys are so cool!

well i have to run. i'll probably write something exciting and long during the holidays when i have time.

<3

something random

2004-12-01T13:47:00.000-08:00

hey. i know i haven't blogged here for a while. that's only cause I've been incredibly busy. this weekend i'm having an early Christmas patay at my house cause my one friend Amy is going to Brazil so she won't be here for Christmas. well tomorrow is a short day at school so i'll probably be forced to get my Christmas presents after school for the party and on Friday i have a drivers test so i can get my certificate to apply for my g2 :). that's only
like a MONTH away...sweeeeeeeeeeeeet. can't wait to be driving on my own.
i made cookies with this amazing chocolate stuff in the middle...they're so good. i suck in the kitchen..i should probably try to cook or bake once in a while..this was like the first time making something in like a year besides a sandwich. my mom's the only one that really cooks at my house. oh well...when i need to survive i will cook :P.
yesterday i was sick so i watched the two towers TWICE..that's like six hours of the lotr. meh..i never get tired of lord of the rings...<3.>
I am so excited for this Christmas...yes..:) gotta go.write in here latah

dashboard thoughts

2004-11-19T06:38:00.000-08:00

i am rather bored at the moment...so instead of making you the same...i'll make whoever reads this...bored to tears..HA..no..i was really joking. honestly.since i'm too bothered to write anything else.. this is a poem i wrote a long time ago, like over a year ago...and yeah...hope you like it.

My heart
It hangs on threads of string
It seems to be currently displaying
All my fears and doubts and thoughts
From the inside out
I try to keep a distance
So these threads won’t unravel
And let my heart fall
Because I am unequipped to sew it up again
I try to cover it up
So our threads won’t tangle and tear
I’ve tried
but sometimes that’s not enough
As the bruises are covering it
And some threads are still unraveling as I go
So I try to just think
And not let it sink
As you walk toward that door
Ripping out my heart as you go

word...enough said

2004-11-18T18:08:00.000-08:00

well. am i ever glad that today is thursday....and that tomorrow i won't be going to school. yes...nice. i guess i'll ramble about a few random thoughts. today was boring. i worked at the library and some annoying woman kept on asking me to move away from my cart to pick at something..and then she'd always come right back and dump it in the wrong order...she made me mad. heh...i'm tired. this is gonna be short cause i don't have much to say. tomorrow i'm going to that new von(i hope that's how you spell it...i hate misspelled words :P) mall in missisauga with kayleigh my friend. yeah..she's awesome i love her death. and then after my friend phoebe is gonna come over...or we're gonna do something...we'll see.
so yeah...sorry this is a very boring blog.
later

It's monday

2004-11-15T13:39:00.000-08:00

hello. well my weekend was very 'great fun.' as brandon says..(lol sarah;P) yeah...i met this guy on the weekend and he didn't hear what i said when i was being introduced so he called me "its Inah" for the whole weekend. very funny kid. :) yeah and taboo was fun...! today i had drivers ed...and my driving instructor..who believes he is funny, but obviously is missing some important brain cells...HID the car keys underneath the car..AS A JOKE! like it was funny!then made me walk around it five times...in front of my highschool, luckily no one was outside! i don't understand how he got hired....he always tells me i remind him of his daughter and that's a very disturbing thought:S. he says i drive too fast...well like 20 above speed limit..hahha. other than that i'm getting 90s on everything, so that's fine with me.
well i must run now...i have lots to do.
write later

starburst

2004-11-09T11:07:00.000-08:00

meh...i love starbursts. my brother just gave me some so that's why i put up this random title. anyways...my ears are COLD....i just walked home from school so I'm still freezing..brrrrr... winter is definitely here. well i was just thinking about memories and lotsa stuff today and i thought i'd just put my poem on here ..since anyone could read this..i can't put down who i wrote it for..cuz that would ruin the mystery of it.

Empty spaces

I’m sorry I never told you
What you meant to me
I regret never putting my arms around you
And holding you close
To show you
Who you were to me
My heart’s half broken
Cause all our dreams are gone
Childhood left and the world began
I’m hurting cause I could have you here with me
Even though there’s an empty space
I feel your presence like a caress
Your fingertips touching my face
Those long warm golden summer days
They were never spent in vain
Cause I found a precious treasure in your smile
And something I never thought I’d find in your beautiful soul
Your hand was always gentle guiding me out of disbeliefs
And into new possibilities
I miss the person I was with you
I live on each glorious moment I spent with you
You were the dream that carried through
There was no one else but you

first snowfall of the season

2004-11-08T16:00:00.000-08:00

i hate mondays... they're the beginning of five long sessions of hardworking (or supposed to be) school days that are boring and long. ew. well yeah. and i'm extra tired. very good weekend tho. haha...my friend's a new driver..and we had some escapades yesterday with her two wheels on the curb of a car wash entrance..when we weren't supposed to be there...kinda embarassing..LOL. long story..which i won't get into now. downtown was amazing:). I got this lime green bag...i love it...and some sweaters. there was this pink one...i'm not usually a pink fan, but this one was totally sick from Bluenotes. Sweaters are awesome..they make you feel so warm and cozy:). ahh..and it's snowing outside(hence the title)...i had to walk home from school but wasn't quite as bad as i thought. I'm excited for Christmas holidays...yes...! snowball fights, snowmen, christmas presents, christmas dinner,and of course no school. well i must run now...not literally...just to the next room to pick up the phone..lol.then i'll probably make some hot chocolate....hot chocolate is the best. well write later
-dina

"hey lush..it's the weekend"

2004-11-05T11:34:00.000-08:00

that's from a song by Taking Back Sunday called 'your own disaster'...a very good song. yeah. but i am excited it's the weekend:). extremely so. Going to a concert with ashley and amy...;) and then gonna hit eaton centre while we're there...go out to eat...yess...i'm also very happy Shrek 2 is out...:)...i just rented it..so i'll probably watch it right after i finish this blog. i'm supposed to do my chemistry lab cause i won't have any other time to do it this weekend..but oh well. i'll just do it really fast..later. lol.
i just got back from school..it's nice having fifth spare. School was boring today...chemistry was finishing a lab...biology was just work, and economics ..we played a game called widgets...don't ask..too long to explain.
i'm missing all my friends that moved away....like phoebe, jess, keegan, alyssa, sean, tyler....sniff...miss you guys...! So sad they're not here anymore. well keegan's not far..but i have to get my G2 still..so i can't really see him til then cause my parentals aren't enthusiastic about giving me rides anywhere besides 5 min to the Go station, which i do frequently. ah well. i will go see them all soon.
it feels weird writing all this...cause i never know who's gonna read it...strange. well anyhow....i will be off..and will try to write again shortly.

-adina

nothing really on my mind...

2004-11-03T19:04:00.000-08:00

well this is new. i'm actually not that exciting of a person...sorry to dissapoint you. i'm supposed to be doing homework right now, but heh...i have other priorities. i'm kinda tired....so this will won't be very long...:P uh well to start..my name's adina...and i love music..that's my favourite thing in the universe..besides my best friends. yeah. also i find that blogging is very cool...as of this moment. another thing i thought i'd share was i love meeting new people, love the summer with ice cream and the beach and being tanned...i think tans are the coolest thing. Downtown toronto is one of my favourite places...i went there with my friends Janice, Jenny and Karen and we ate the most amazing food at this spectacular place..it was expensive..but oh well. I think i love toronto cause there's always something new and something exciting to do there.
my fate in life is to travel to california with my best friends,surf...and get a job in business most likely with my awesome friend Kayleigh..and be a cosmetician on the side. Kayleigh and me both love DECA...it's this business competition that we have through a whole bunch of schools...you do a roleplay before a judge and if u win: you get to go to California(that's if u win in provincials). Regionals are coming up soon and i haven't even gone to any meetings yet..(ha....the judge will probably laugh at me cuz i won't know what i'm talking about :P). yup yup.
well enough of me going on about nothing. I must leave now and shall write in here later.